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[ 25 August 2005|7:09pm ]
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I'm dead as dead can be, the doctor tells me. But i just cant believe him. i'm the optimistic one. [ 24 August 2005|3:11pm ]
[ mood | crazy ]

I cut my hair.

(Ambition leads to failure)

today's a good day [ 14 August 2005|6:09pm ]
[ mood | ecstatic ]

Happy birthday Jonathan Vincent Greenman.

          today has been a good ass day. I didn't sleep last night again but what does that matter.
                            This morning, chilled around, listened to some good olde classic rock. 94.7 fm. pshya. Baba 
                            O' Reily was on at like 9 in the morning. What a great was to start your day. So I got ready 
                            and what not and then the familia came over. Ari met the cousins finally. I'll have pictures 
                           of them up hopefully soonish. Yeuh boy. Ari left and we ate. at 5.50ish Jon came over. It's his 
                           birthday big one seven. I'm going to miss that kid so much when he graduates. But thats not for
                            a while. So it's cool. Jord was in the car with him. He attacked me with a hug that kid is
                            bitchin'. Never wears a shirt or shoes, but bangin' none the less. Jon has gotta be like the
                            nicest guy in the world. Anywho. Don't know about the rest of the night. Just gonna chill
                            with the cousins i s'pose.

PEACE

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if you want to destroy my sweaterrrrr [ 14 August 2005|1:24pm ]
[ mood | jump around like an idiot ]

 


Put up your hands girl but not so,so pushy
If you wanna be comn' and makn' sweet love to me
And if your the type of girl that do anything me please
Maybe then i realize you ain't got what i need
To keep my soul alright
It keeps me up high above
Yes me got the reason to come question your love
It keeps my soul alright
It keeps me up high above
Want me girlie to come give me some sweet lovn'
And in the morning time she makes me feel alright
Then me gotta be waitn' till the day turns to night
Cause in the evening time she makes me feel alright
Girl you got me wishin' this would happen every night

Said if you want to get with me
Girl this is what you'll find
But a man who's got the type of moves to make u loose your mind
You tell me that your love is true on each and every day
You tell me that you've got that type of lovn' here to stay
SWEET HONEY


You see me laughin'
Cause it's kinda funny to me
The way she say she never give her lovn' for free
She say she got a man why she lookn' at me
Yes she want a lover with the sensativity ya

But wont you tell me that your loves from the heart
Yes the type of lovn' that can tear a man apart
Girl you got to realize before it ever starts
Yes i am the man who wont come breakn' your heart


Said if you want to get with me
Girl this is what you'll find
But a man who's got the type of moves to make u loose your mind
You tell me that your love is true on each and every day
You tell me that you've got that type of lovn' here to stay
SWEET HONEY
She gonna steal my money
SWEET HONEY
She gonna steal my lovn'
Yes you try to tell me that your sent from above
Girl you give me reason to come question your love
SWEET HONEY
She gonna steal my money
SWEET HONEY
She gonna steal my lovn'
Yes you try to tell me that your sent from above
Girl you give me reason to come question your love
SWEET HONEY


Said if you want to get with me
Girl this is what you'll find
But a man who's got the type of moves to make u loose your mind
You tell me that your love is true on each and every day
You tell me that you've got that type of lovn' here to stay
SWEET HONEY
She gonna steal my money
SWEET HONEY
She gonna steal my lovn'
Yes you try to tell me that your sent from above
Girl you give me reason to come question your love
SWEET HONEY
She gonna steal my money
SWEET HONEY
She gonna steal my lovn'
Yes you try to tell me that your sent from above
Girl you give me reason to come question your love
SWEET HONEY
She gonna steal my money
SWEET HONEY
She gonna steal my lovn'
Yes you try to tell me that your sent from above
Girl you give me reason to come question your love
SWEET HONEY
She gonna steal my money
SWEET HONEY
She gonna steal my lovn'
Yes you try to tell me that your sent from above
Girl you give me reason to come question your love
SWEET HONEY


Said little women with your pretty red dress on
The type of women make you never forget
Said little women with your pretty red dress on
The type of women make you never forget

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I've got the hiccups [ 13 August 2005|11:49pm ]
[ mood | happy ]

Today was good.
I didn't sleep last night, don't mind that though.

Ari came over at 4ish. maybe
went to Joshs 6ish

intended to see a film at the thee ay ter but met up with matt e and avery at fountain walk instead.
This guy had his guitar and he played a song about chaldeans and how short aris skirt was and how shed be raped; and how matt and josh would save her. ahahah that kid was so cool. He just came up to me and hugged me and I thought it was so weird. Hella nice kid though.
Went to the hookah lounge and it was totally cool that avery passed it up.
We bought double apple. It was sweet.
Miss alex chester was there. I haven't seen that girl in forever. She's the shit.
Ran into palter about a 1/2 hour of sittin in our circle. He's the coolest cat around. Love that kid.
Met this girl named jess she was real nice.

Just alot of nice people.
Bought icening cream and chilled. it was a sweet ass night


I like it when you call me big poppa. Throw your hands in the air if yous a true playa

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My love is vengence [ 13 August 2005|3:14pm ]
[ mood | devastated ]

ALright.
So maybe life isn't so great.

Well last night sure as hell wasn't
Don't even know what brought it on....


Maybe i need to talk to someone about it


Then again maybe I really dont...

sigh. well the rest of my days should be good right?



Fucia it is


____________________
Hey lady, you've got the love I need. Maybe more than enough. Darlin Darlin Darlin walk a while with me. Oh you got so much. Many have I loved, many times been bitten. Many times I've gazed upon the open road. Many times I've lied, Many times I've listened. Many times i've wondered how much there is to know. Many dreasm come true, and some have silver linings. I live for my dream, and a pocketful of gold. Mellow is the man, who knows what he's been missing. Many many men can't see the open road. Many is a word---that only leaves you guessing.

Guessing about things you really ought to know.


sigh

__________________________________
remember these names

Alex Kinsella___________Jon Greenman
Leon Lemeshko___________Eric Tuttle
Adam____________________Josh Saham
Pat McCormick_____&_____
Matt Elia_______________
MAtt Drazin_____________
Adam____________________
___________________________________

That is all.

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Take me down to the paradise city where the grass is green and the girls are pretty [ 12 August 2005|11:53pm ]
[ mood | crazy ]

I haven't showered in a really







really



long time. hahahhaaaa

________________________________________


SO
Tonight was sweet
ill update about it later

anywho

im taking a vote.

I'm going to drastically change my hair
woop

so uhmmm

What will it be?

Dreads
or
fucia stripes

vote!!!

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Well life is short so love the one you got [ 12 August 2005|5:37pm ]
[ mood | amused ]

Life is awesome
It's just sweet

Went to Borders and bought a sweet Jim Morrison book. slept at aris. chilled s'posed to go to the movies but it fell through oh well.

Gogin to my uncles band's jam session tonight it should be sweet i get to see my older cousins tonight partyy

I miss some people. But I've come to realize that they'll never miss me. oh well.

I don't like when people add double letters to the ends of their sentences. I do it from TIME TO TIME. but not alll the time. which i do not like.
I dont know just annoying


And I don't like it when people say they know nothing when you know full well they do. mmmm. weird.

anyways. summer is good. tomorrow is saturday. which is more good.
Im gonna jet

Later Skaters


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SKOOOTERRR [ 10 August 2005|3:17pm ]
[ mood | content ]

-Goth--
Do you wear black eyeliner?: yes
Do you own any black clothing?: yes
Do you think about death often?: no
Do you want to die?: sometimes
Are you a social outcast?: no
Do you like Hot Topic?: occasionaly
Total YES: 2

--Skater/ Punk--
Can you skateboard?: shittily
Do you wear Vans?: no
Do you do stupid stuff with your friends?: yeh
Do you listen to punk bands: yes
Do you have any piercings?: yeah
Do you wear mohawks?: i like them
Total YES:3.5

--Prep--
Do you say the word "like": mm sometimes
Do you shop at Abercrombie and Fitch?: no
Are the A&F models hot?: no
Rock music is bad, right?: no
do u want to be in a sority/faternity?: no
Into jocks/popular girls?: no
Are/were you a cheerleader?: yes...
Total YES: 1


--Hippie--
Is your hair long?: yes
Are you a vegetarian?: nHAHA couldnt if i tried
Do you own a tye~dye shirt?: yes
Do you want peace?: yes
Do you want to save the animals?: yes
Do you think the war is unneccesary?: yeah
Total YES: 4

--Gangsta--
Are you from the ghetto?: no
Do you own "bling bling"?: no
Do you wear do-rags?: no
Do you like hip-hop?: no
Was Tupac truly the greatest rapper in the world?: two-pack shack-er?
Do you like afros?: mm
Have you ever said 'fo shizzle'?: yeah
Total YES: 1


--Emo--
Do you cry often?: not often
Do you have an acoustic guitar?: yes
Are you emotional?: yes
Do you like soft music: yes
Do people not understand you?: sometimes
Do you write your own song?: hahah yes
Is your hair dyed dark?: not dyed..but its natural
Total YES: 6


--Jock--
You play sports?: yeh
Are they important to you?: Not really
Do you pick on the geeky kids?: no
Do you like football?: yes
Were you considered a bully by anyone?: no
Was the person you bullied a total dork?: no
Total YES: 2


--Surf Bum--
Do you surf?: have
Do you wear flip flops year-round?: ha yeh
Is your hair shaggy? mhm ohhh it can be
Do you wake up at 6 or before every morning? im getting back to it
Do you own any pairs of shorts?: yes
Are you tan?: yeh
Total YES: 6

--Geek--
Do you wear glasses?: sometimes
Do you get good grades? decent
Do you use an inhaler?: no
Do you stick pens and calculators into your shirt pockets? no
Are you on the computer often?: meh, yeah
Do you ever get picked on?: no
Total YES: 1.5

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Sit down kid have a cigar [ 10 August 2005|3:01pm ]
[ mood | chill ]

Soooo
back from Ohio.
twas fun.


People are right. I have changed. Personally, I think for the better. But hey that's just what I think.
I'm so happy and I'm not stressed or anything hardly ever anymore. I like it.


Anyways. I was conversing with my friend today, and I brought up Buddy Holly.
They say :"Oh im not too fond of Weezer"

-.-

sigh. well. that's people for you.
anyways.
today. Is a chill day. Thank god. I need it.

TOMORROW
THRIFTING WITH MISS GOULD.

heshshshahahaha. love you Allie.
it will prove to be awesome. ANYWAYS.

I'm off to listen to music.

Later skaters.

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Talkin shit about a pretty sunset. [ 05 August 2005|3:00am ]
[ mood | discontent ]

You know what I don't like?
What's that? you don't care? Oh well I'm going to tell you anyways.
I don't like it when people go through their days with everylittledetail.
It's fucking annoying!
I did it from time to time.
Now I'm just too fuckin lazy. If you wanna write out your day.
write an outline.

tomorrow-seeing Jon possibly. Chillen with ari
day after through weds-ohio with ari. Unplanned what were gonna do, but its gonna be great.

(That's actually my agenda. I've got this new thing where I don't like to plan anymore. Not worth the fucking effort.)

LIKE THAT. Please don't write down your days like you carry a pad and paper that says 'LJ ENTRY' on top.
It's fucking annoying.
Thank you.



ANOTHER THING.
I don't like boys.
No sir I do not.
There are the four main ones.

number one...He's my best friend. He likes me. But I could never date him. Just can't. Girls you understand.
number two...He's also my best friend. We've hooked up. and he likes me...i think. But i don't like him back in the way he wants me to. I'm afraid I'll lose a friend
number three...now this one's special. He's one of those cases where you're really close, then something happens and fucks it all up and you don't talk for a month or so. I was infatuated with him. I'm not sure if I'd date him for some personal reasons considering the history we have
number four...He's my best guy friend. I could tell him the world and I know that he would understand. Sadly, I had to mess up the friendship by dating him. Then I made a stupid mistake. And I'm paying for it dearly. Ohhhh it sucks.


what. the fuck. should I do. Advice would be appreciated greatly.

Ciao.

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Good evening ladies and gentlemen, you're just in time to watch me as I wrestle my concience. [ 05 August 2005|1:24am ]
[ mood | kinda pissed at humanity ]

The world is coming to an end.how can i tell do you ask? Heres how.
o1)Collar popping
o2)The Internet
o3)Death of the English Language. 'leik, LOLZ ohmygoshes lmao cuz' no grammar? (see internet)


Disclamer:
This entry partains to no person. Just generalities.

Okay so here's shit i need off my chest.

o1) I was just shifting through some comments. Annnnd I can't help but notice people anonymously dissing each other calling each other 'faggots' and how if people don't concur with one another...it's 'gay'
ey, fuck you buddy. I don't like how this world that I was raised in. Well...West Bloomfield, Michigan anyways...tend to think that the most offensive of remarks is calling a heterosexual being that of which it is out of his/her sexual orientation. Please people. Why do you call someone a 'homo' or a 'flamer'? mm? I don't see that of the homoseual tendancies to call each other 'straights' or 'heteros'. Why? Because it's not offensive. Why do you think it's so harmful to call someone something their not? PEOPLE ARE ACTUALLY HOMOSEXUAL. TAKE INTO CONSIDERATION THAT THERE ARE ACTUAL PEOPLE WHO LIKE PEOPLE OF THE SAME GENDER. Deal! Why is this an insult?!?! Please someone, explain, if theyre not just like you in every fucking way, is it not alright? Next time you think you're perfect, walk on water for me. I mean really people.....Some of you preach how 'Oh, Bush is the anti-christ' What is he? Would anyone care to tell me? He is a right-winged reactionary. With his conformism, his theocratic views, and facism. So stop bitching!! Your little sponge minds are just agreeing with his ideas. So everyone who uses those derogatory terms...should be known as a republican. +++Stop bitching. You're not 18. You can't control who our president is. None of us can. The Electoral College does. Now I'm not 18 either. But this is too much of an annoyance for me not to say anything further.

o2) People who go to camp, or go on vacation, anything of that matter of sort. Don't stay so strongly on your views, gone for a month or less, and then POOF all of the sudden you're born again. It does.not.happen. Alright? You can change..overtime. But changing who you are altogether everytime you leave town...wow get some psycological attention please. Especially if you say you're the same since you were like in 4th grade or whatever. Bullshit you posers.

o3)Everyone is a poseur one way or another. Even myself, for in which way? I don't know. But I know I am somehow. I'm not perfect. I don't ever expect to be. It seems like there'd be too much expected of me.

 

Thought I should get that out. Now people. Don't get me wrong...I've problems of my own. But please. Read above and actually consider it. Mk?

Fin.

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ive got to admit. its getting better all the time. [ 03 August 2005|6:33pm ]
x tiki 44 x: would you like em to pull some friend out of mny ass cause you know some live up there
x tiki 44 x: i here its quite nice in there
x tiki 44 x: but im sorry you can join
x tiki 44 x: theres no vacancy
x tiki 44 x: you cant*


well bitchtits.

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[ 03 August 2005|5:29pm ]
You are
[ ] really short under 5'2
[ ] 5'2 -5'6"
[ ] 5'7''more medium then short
[x] in between 5'7" - 6'
[ ] tall

[ ] blonde
[ ] redhead
[x] brown
[ ] black

[ ] blue-eyed
[ ] brown-eyed
[ ] green-eyed
[ ] hazel eyed
[ ] gold/gray-eyed
[x] bluish/gray- eyed
[X] glasses (for reading)
[x] contacts

[ ] braces
[X] piercings
[ ] tattoos

[ ] short hair
[x] med. hair
[ ] long hair

Your nationality includes...
[ ] chinese
[ ] indian
[ ] taiwanese
[ ] japanese
[ ] spanish
[ ] nicoya
[x] puerto rican
[ ] chicana
[x] italian
[x] scottish
[ ] filipino
[ ] armenian
[x] english
[x] dutch
[x] french
[ ] german
[x] irish
[x] greek
[ ] portuguese
[ ] polish
[ ] korean
[ ] jamacian
[ ] canadian
[ ] lithuanian
[x] Native American
[x] Russian
[X] Ukrainian
[x] British
[xxx] Swedish
[ ] African
[ ] Peruvian
[ ] Hungarian
[ ] Israeli
[ ] thai
[x] Czech-Slovakian
[x] norwegian
[ ] Romanian

Your favorite color(s) is(are)?
[X]red
[ ]khaki
[ ]pink
[ ]yellow
[x]black
[ ]green
[X]blue
[ ]baby blue
[ ]white
[x]silver/gray
[x]purple
[x]brown
[ ]orange
[x] ill add one....the colour of sunsets


Some sports/physical things you HAVE done?
[x] soccer
[x] cheerleading
[X] dancing
[ ] lacrosse
[ ] field hockey
[x] hockey
[X] football
[x] softball
[ ] wrestling
[x] gymnastics
[ ] track/cross country
[X] basketball
[ ] baseball
[x] golf
[X] playing in the mud
[x] playing music
[X] hiking
[X] kayaking
[X] camping
[X] horseback riding
[x] tennis
[X] volleyball
[x] martial arts
[X] swimming

Your personality is sometimes...
[ ] annoying
[X] talkative
[ ] shy
[X] funny
[X] serious
[X] bubbly
[ ] spazzy
[X] fun loving
[X] laid back
[ ] strict
[X] hyper
[X] weird
[x] ditzy
[X] sarcastic
[ ] slow

The music you like is?
[X] classic rock
[ ] rap
[X] rock
[ ] pop
[ ] country
[ ] hiphop
[ ] r&b
[ ] slow jams
[X] classical
[ ] techno
[x] oldies
[x] punk
[x] metal
[x] reggae
[X] emo
[ ] Latin
[x] hardcore
[X] ska
[X] 80's
[X] indie
[x] screamo
[ ] reggaeton
[x] industrial

The pets you have had?
[x] cat
[ ] dog
[ ] lizard
[ ] rat
[ ] ferret
[ ] rabbit
[X] fish
[ ] ducks
[ ] chickens
[ ] horse
[ ] bird
[ ] frog
[ ] hermit crab
[xxxxx] prarie dog
[ ] turtle
[ ] hamster
[ ] snake
[ ] gerbil
[ ] guinea pig
[ ] chinchilla
[ ] other

Clothes you like to wear are?
[X] plain tshirts
[X] sweatshirts
[ ] stockings
[ ] high heels
[X] sneakers
[X] jeans
[ ] pj pants
[X] boxers
[ ] dresses
[ ] mini skirts
[X] medium skirts
[X] long skirts
[X] watches
[ ] hoop earrings
[ ] long earrings
[x] toe socks
[X] flip flops
[ ] halter tops
[ ] stilletos
[X] band tshirts
[X] shorts
[ ] boots
[x] arm warmers
[ ] corsets

You're mostly labeled as?
[x] goth
[x] emo
[x] indie
[ ] prep
[X] punk
[ ] ghetto/gangsta
[ ] Rudeboy
[x] hippie
[ ] nerd
[x] ditzy
[X] hyper
[X] happy
[ ] slutty
[ ] suicidal
[ ] poser
[x] everything
[ ] kandy kid
[ ] Redneck
[X] druggie
[ ] jock
[X] your own style

You eat?
[x] dessert
[ ] no meat
[ ] diet stuff
[x] healthy foods
[x] junk foods
[x] meat
[ ] salad
[ ] seafood
[x] cheese
[x] milk
[x] fruit

A typical friday night...
[X] mall with friends
[x] partying
[z] watching movies
[ ] going to shows
[ ] staying home
[ ] babysitting and getting $$
[x] hanging out with my friends
[ ] working while your friends are out having fun

Online, you use:
[x] lol
[ ] sup
[ ] =D
[ ] lmao
[ ] stfu
[ ] ty
[ ] jk
[ ] ttyl
[ ] lylas/lylab
[ ] g2g
[ ] ^.^ (or a variation)
[ ] T_T
[ ] XD
[x] umm..
[x] hah
[x] heh
[ ] oof
[ ] wtf

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i was truly failing. you were gone and i was home calling around. but nothing was found [ 03 August 2005|3:44pm ]
[ mood | grateful ]

okay if you notice....everyones wearing either red ofr brown....totally unplanned
_&50+ )

tell me. does my smile look real?

(Ambition leads to failure)

[ 03 August 2005|3:25pm ]
[ mood | alone ]

  • What the fuck i don't have a job anymore.

sigh

 

_______________________

 

And when I see you, I really see you upside down. But my brain knows better, it picks you up and turns you around. Turns you around...If you feel discouraged, then there's a lack of colour here. Please don't worry lover, its really bursting at the seams, absorbing everything, the spectrum's A to Z. This is fact not fiction for the first time in years. All the girls in every girly magazine cant make me feel any less alone....I'm reaching for the phone to call at 7.03, and on your machine I slur a plea for you to come home. But i know that it's too late, that I should have given you a reason to stay. This is fact not fiction, for the first time in years.

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am i more than you bargained for yet [ 03 August 2005|1:44am ]
[ mood | weird ]

whats up homes.
lets review
since my memory aint worth shit nowadays.

SATURDAY. uhmmmm movies with adam liz josh ari barrie matt and Adam. saw stealth. it was shitty

SUNDAY FUCKING WARPED TOUR awh man it was so awesome. so sore and so burnt. but worth every second. saw too many sweet ass bands. there were stands that sold illegal things and i went fucking crowd surfing.fuck. yes.
http://warpedtour.com check the bands fuckersss

Dillenger escape plan was AMAZING. with their destroying of stageness and spitting fire and vomiting. hehe.
met frank. saw josh. twas awesome.

 

all you people fucking rock my world.

MODAY. went to ians with ari matt and avery. fucking fun time. played frisbee for the first time wastnt that bad.... sweet. ari spent the night

TODAY. chilled with josh ari and Adam. i love those kids all the too much. saw office space. what an awesome movie.

wow i never go into too much detail anymore do i?

tomorrow. is a chill day.
thursday or friday. hanging with frank/anthony.and the other day is frankenmuth. working friday morning
sat-Adam's leaving. ill miss you=\. GOING TO ALLIES SWEET ASS. i miss her too much.
SUNDAY i dont know.

okay. well. im off i guess. im msick of this shit man. i truly am.

_________________________

I call you up
You pick up
You call my bluff
On the cards of love
You hold too close
Your hands to your chest
I can't read your eyes
But I confess

It's lonely far from you
Even when you're right by me
It's only why I wait for you
To take my hand...

Why do I beg like a child for your candy?
Why do I come after you like I do? I love you...
Whatever you are... I swear
You'll be my angel
You...

I play my cards
The best I can
But I lose my luck
When you're not here

My Darling heart
Won't ya please give in?
I may be strong
But I want ya back again...

When you're not here
Oh its hard to pretend
Its all alright again
When your not here love
Its hard to pretend
Its all alright

Still, why do I beg like a child for your candy
Why do I run after you like I do I love you
Whatever you are...
I swear
You'll be my angel...
You...

Watch the deck, Count your cards
It makes no sense that I'm always losin
When you're gone...

Why do I beg like a child for your candy
Why do I come after you like I do I love you
Whatever you are
I swear
You'll be my angel
You...
When you're gone...

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ahhhh look at all the lonley people. [ 30 July 2005|11:41pm ]
[ mood | crushed ]

Each year he sent her roses, and the note would always say, I love you even more this year, than last year on this day.



" My love for you will always grow, with every passing year." She knew this was the last time that the roses would appear.



She thought, he ordered roses in advance before this day. Her loving husband did not know, that he would pass away.



He always liked to do things early, way before the time. Then, if he got too busy, everything would work out

fine.

She trimmed the stems and placed them in a very special vase. Then, sat the vase beside the portrait of his smiling face.



She would sit for hours, in her husband's favorite chair. While staring at his picture, and the roses sitting there.



A year went by, and it was to live without her mate. With loneliness and solitude, that had become her fate.



Then, the very hour, The doorbell rang, and there were roses sitting by her door. She brought the roses in, and then just looked at them in shock.

Then, went to get the telephone, to call the florist shop.



The owner answered, and she asked him, if he would explain, Why would someone would do this to her, causing her such pain?



"I know your husband passed away, more than a year ago," The owner said, "I knew you'd call, and you would want to know.



The flowers you received today, were paid for in advance. Your husband always planned ahead, he left nothing to chance.



There is a standing order, that I have on file down here, And he has paid, well in advance, you'll get them every year.



There also is another thing, that I think you should know, He wrote a special little card...he did this years ago.



Then, should ever I find out that he's no longer here, that's the card that should be sent to you the following year."



She thanked him and hung up the phone, her tears now flowing hard. Her fingers shaking, as she slowly reached to get the card.



Inside the card, she saw that he had written her a note. Then, as she stared in total silence, this is what he wrote...



"Hello my love, I know it's been a year since I've been gone. I hope it hasn't been too hard for you to overcome. I know it must be lonely, and the pain is very real. For if it was the other way, I know how I would feel. The love we shared made everything so beautiful in life. I loved you more than words can say, you were the perfect wife. You were my friend and lover, you fulfilled my every need. I know it's only been a year, but please try not to grieve. I want you to be happy, even when you shed your tears. That is why the roses will be sent to you for years. When you get these roses, think of all the happiness that we had together, and how both of us were blessed. I have always loved you and I know I always will. But, my love, you must go on, you have some living still. Please...try to find happiness, while living out your days. I know it is not easy, but I hope you find some ways.



The roses will come every year, and they will only stop, When your door's not answered, when the florist stops to knock. He will come five times that day, in case you have gone out. But after his last visit, he will know without a doubt to take the roses to the place, where I've instructed him

and place the roses where we are, together once again. "



Sometimes in life, you find a special friend; Someone who changes your life just by being part of it. Someone who makes you laugh until you can't stop;

Someone who makes you believe that there really is good in the world. Someone who convinces you that there really is an unlocked door just waiting for you to open it.


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Let's move on, shall we? Yesterday, eric and josh came over. ari was there and we met up with matt later, dude, it was so much fun. The apple dapples...oh god...the apple dapples. those kids are amazing.

i love you
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TODAY! well. this day was planned. woop. anyways. ent to go see stealth with werney, liz, matt, josh, barrie, ari,, and Adam. It was boring. but they tried their best to make it funny. We were all supposed to go back to joshs. but boy did dthat fail miserably. it was a decent day though.


sigh. i get my hopes up and its like BOOM fuck that. i mean. thatwas probably the last time i see him till school. fun. I thought i'd actually hang with him today? Oh silly my for thinking that.

Oh well.

i have two broken ribs. How dandy. Eh. no more running for a while now i guess.

[ ** ]



Fucking warped tour is tomorrow. its gonna be off the heezy.
for rizzeal!



Ax-x
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(17 > choked on their haloAmbition leads to failure)

fifty four, forty six. whats my number? [ 28 July 2005|7:36pm ]
[ mood | amused ]

People people. uhhh. please stop "disowning" me and what not. It's kinda pathetic.
Why disown me? If you have other friends that do it, what makes me different?
My decisionn. If you're going to stop talking to me cause of that never really close friends then were we?

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anyways. Cut the shit. kay? I won't post it anymore. But now I know what people not to tell. So alright. Deal with it please. Again. Don't contradict. Don't bitch at me if you don't bitch at everyone else. but ehh suree. i dont care.



whatever./



have a good day

(17 > choked on their haloAmbition leads to failure)

Am I loud and clear? or am i breaking up? [ 20 June 2005|12:10am ]
[ mood | loved ]

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